Suddenly so turbid that kind of dust swept over the dark, it's back from the tower rises, soon filled the sky, the whole world. I do not know why, Ze measures in the sense of the tall buildings that the dust was swept down a lot of time to even think of .
he did not know this association comes from.
Back then, he is opposite the Capital Theatre as the dust of this sudden, he pulled up in the company, intends to walk through the Wangfujing Street, take the subway home.
dust barrier in front of his see, everything is gray, the bustling Wangfujing Street, the sea like a storm, and those are the cars on the road congestion is like boats fishing boats. In the bright lights, sound the horn, but could not move a step. Measures for dust blocking the front of the saw Chak, he squinted, facing the sticky dust particles go in the direction toward the subway station.
illusion that a sudden fall at this time to the moment he went down the steps.
seems that the steps leading down to the past, the years leading to the quiet side of Lugu Lake, waving branches leading to the lake Mosuo youth, Ze measures, juvenile Ze measures. Ze measure aware of their feet inside the illusion of forward, but he then some effort toward the illusion of an internal and took a step - Ze measures short on, little down, he returned to his pre-ceremony preparations Chengding Old time, he saw his mother back to him, the dim light in the turbid, is preparing to fold the piece as a gift for his Chengding jeans.
Ze measures seem to all deposits of all the past on that short, with a pair of jeans with pink flowers. It is so thick, so heavy, so disturbing.
fact, this is just a children's pants, faded blue with easy, machine embroidered flowers above tis across the long years, the dust flying in the world between reality and reveal a between the tender and beautiful false.
What is good?
He felt his mother holding a bulging belly huge children's pants funny dangling in front of him to look very nasty.
Her tone has the ingredients to please.
, the last stop in his eyes.
Ze measures of the mother, obviously, her patience is extremely limited, and her face emerged out of touch strange smile, wiping her strange smile these measures into a stiff Ze eyes turned in after left.
Cheng Ding Li, Ze Moso measures in the juvenile mind, was how strong expectations ah! However, this band has spent the children's pants to his expectations of life and life to destroy, damage from, like a piece of broken glass. Since then, the dream is lost, and before the dream was very Ze measures gorgeous, it is the twists and turns and wonderful, but it said no gone. There is no empty dream in the morning, with a total sense of loss to Ze measures are - then, he was twelve years old, was aware of a sense of loss is not the word, the root of the word can be stretched early on him.
because of this trousers or not because of this trousers, Cheng Ding Lai Chak are the hard to become a lump of psychological measures, a fish bone. As long as the thought of the day, Mu Lengfang will be out in a short stature, pale skin, the nose has collapsed, round little man, wearing a ridiculous trousers with flower children, Ze measures heart full of unparalleled frustration.
this frustration to make his dream lost all color, and eventually lost their own. No dream, the night is nothing Ze measures, dark, empty, immense.
but he woke up.
Muleng Fang, and the darkness of the concentration is slowly faded, he saw over his head shrouded in the old atmosphere, they are overflowing, is penetrating, they are measures to bring about serious and sad Ze reminder : Dream is also the need for the young.
Today the concept is a very substantial, even though the ingredients do not have much joy, but it came.
left coerce Ze measures the body temperature of his hot blankets. Fireplace where the fire has been dying, the same is extinguished and his old grandmother, her time had already lived more than she can remember the years, the lack of moisture in her brown face with a strange expression, like in the winter for food animals, the cold but it Qihuang vast decadent.
Ze measures can not distinguish between the old grandmother was awake or asleep.
many years, Ze measures will not touch the memory of the past, the past as the future, the dream can not reach. Today, it must be this sudden dust, blocking his vision, so he has now become chaotic and uncertain.
illusion as the subway stairs, still continues, Ze measures wandering eyes, the first time, the color of the world is doubtful. Wearing a red windbreaker in the corner there, the somewhat slim back in the field of vision measures Ze spent considerable time, as the day the only evidence that still exists in this world, but alive. Ze measures
see his mother suddenly, at this time.
other words, this day, Ze measures not only the note of the ceremony that he lost hope of Chengding jeans, see tis machine embroidered flowers, and also saw his bright colors, but lose texture of the mother.
She also standing on a corner, wearing a red T-shirt white pleated skirts that trail, then hit the red windbreaker with the same, with the risk of disappearing.
She said: while fierce wind, a lookout is also torn to pieces.
pleated skirts that trail along the fragmented wind, sand and dust in the rolling hula, she staggered, war legislation instability, gloomy face lost its original luster, hiding in the dust resolution unclear. Indeed, her face, no longer even a good texture of the silk.
Ze measures is suddenly discovered at this time, his mother, the woman about to give birth, although with bright colors, but lost the sense of reality, he did not expect that this image will stay in his mind in, stay for a very long time.
time, Ze measures just up from the ground, his body still keeping the fist and footprints measuring Di, still keeping the heavy pain, he could hear his fist on the bones fall slow issued muffled, needless to say, he had just been measured beating neighbor Di - Cheng Ding will be held at his ceremony that day.
we said, Ze Mu Lengfang measures leaving his house, left him awake or asleep I do not know when the old grandmother, is clearly intended for the
he climbed the neighbors house to spend Di floor test. At this time no wind, the cry of a bird locked in the corner of the dense foliage, the smell of nectar rich in precipitation in the air, stagnate not move, so Ze measures issued through the stairs creak sound of the early morning that day to become the most clear bright and loud.
place a little further away, in the flower of his home Chak measures upstairs, and his mother was walking restlessly, as anxious to see her in the rock scene without exception, So she tries to look beyond some of the areas projected, she saw her son with thinning hair soft head home from a neighbor's flower Di upstairs smoke test, to see some hesitation, he went to her sister Di lived greenhouse test Before Chuizhao Shou, shoulders hunched, with a look like cockroaches, stay there.
When did he take such a strange look, and Ze measures to search for the mother in the memory when the shadow of his young. She remembered the child
exception timid, little sign of trouble he would reveal little eyes staring at his hair stood on one kind of terror is look, and then his mouth slightly sunken to a blanket on both sides, started issuing the same time and very high pitched cries of despair, this cry sounds like a full moon baby crying wolf.
more frightening is that many times he would cry for no reason, at first playing with a straight face is also something of a sudden he stopped to think of an important issue as thoughtful a moment, this time his mother would be a strong premonition that he would cry, and sure enough, on both sides of his mouth to the blanket to a burst of sharp, thin cry will be leisurely sounded: >
Ze measures mother then said to myself:
often in the dead of night, this cry in a very quiet moment there is no sign of land You Youran sounded, and then unrestricted elongated stretches, the mother of horror Ze measures the maximum lifting body limits to feel the power of this cry breathtaking, like the horror with her lying there beside her Assia, they often helpless in a strikingly similar tone to ask a question - to do? So they are hesitant measures found in Chak intention did not stop crying when my grandmother would cry out loud the name of the mother Ze measures, reporting a fact no longer informed -
measures to cry! Ze
measures through the night the mother is convinced that the people will hear the village fell into her mother's voice calling her name.
night if there is wind, in addition to the drum by the wind a linen mat towel exposing her naked thighs fit outside the farther the sound will pass.
Ze measures sound of sobs, tearful, sad his face was dry and a skeptical look, with a weak fire in the fireplace watching the disheveled hair, cheekbones flushing, exude a kind of strange The warm breath of the woman. The eyes will feel ashamed even prostitutes.
Thus, the mother immediately drill down to shame as far as possible in bed with a voice full of sweetness, said: , absently stroking his back. Both anxious and guilty heart. Ze
often wait until the measures to stop him crying like a baby wolf, with a very uneasy posture to sleep again when the West is already the stars fall, losing patience with the people upstairs have quietly left.
Behold, his hair, his nose, his skin is so different, together they constitute a particularly sad overall, with the long and lonely Ze growth initiatives.
He must really want to know the secret.
but many times when her eye contact to his cast to her eyes a bunch of petty, she will not hesitate to say: in front of both of us and I did not recognize him. Do you think this matter up? So the only village of Chak measures do not become adult men fell into the water to visit the child.
Sometimes, when a group of tourists walking slowly side of Lugu Lake, the water village, the boys will be pointing to one of the more relatively short fat white men compared measures directed at Ze shouted: Dad see you. Baba and his face outside the litter for his mother felt ashamed. Di
stood before measuring greenhouse sister, Ze measures, together with his breathing, lying down quietly by a curtain of linen curtain blocking the carpet. He did not know this big with his 10-year-old woman pink skin, what is being done, he has been out of the room overflowing strong flavor of Tibetan incense and rouge get carried away and forget all the significance of standing here.
measured at this time Di sister suddenly Tiaolian out more than the smell of her is her strong overnight and sorrow.
Obviously he was not who she wants to see, where there is a little misunderstanding.
Ze measures frightened, he turned to flee, with open arms, like a thin cormorant flying close to the surface. He sounded a bunch full of laughter behind him,
she will give him anything, Ze measures to the most likely is a piece of Songhua sugar. Di measurement sister, which is measured sister Di. I do not know when, she began to appear in Chak measures the line of sight, living in his heart, no one of her areas of interest also to expand the quiet will eventually become the heart of the Queen.
sunset, Lugu Lake Lin-appearing light golden, when looking at the figure Ze measures dissolved in a cloud of golden mist. She would sit in the upstairs of the loom before weaving the rope tied around the waist axis, her shoulder is straight, so the figure looks very stiff fabric. Then, weaving the action and is extremely slow, slow to make the time longer, she often becomes dark blue part of the night, leaving only a vague outline of the shadow looming in the starlight when thin.
think of the escape,UGG boots, many years later is still always feel ashamed Ze measures. Later, he knows a little further away in places, the flowers in his own house upstairs, and his mother, who witnessed the escape process pretended not to know, he's ashamed of it to be stronger, just formed a cocoon in the heart .
that day, his mother saw her son appear in the upstairs neighbor's flowers, hearts seemed to have some faint hope,Bailey UGG boots, but he suddenly ran away, the pace of panic-stricken, weak bear, He even did not say a word. She began to feel growth measures for the Ze how far away it is a thing, so she can see the scenery shake even more powerful, is simply beating. Di measurement is one such beating in front of Chak measures, he tall and strong, like a brown wall. Ze
he picked up measures by the collar, brought him, and his sister asked a similar question: He felt like a locust was filed, hand, foot in the air, Flurry, can not find anything, then he was thrown to the ground, the body covered with a fist and footprints measuring Di.
Ze measures by the mother's breathing a serious challenge, she forgot to breathe. But she get hold of yourself, do not go out as usual, caught the ears of Di test, side warning side curse, and let Ze measures of attention, but also cold and disgusted look, like a bubble, like a bird landed on her feces .
So she picked it up
left lying on the ground by her breathing, her body, but also in bent like broken this time, so she found time along the warm amniotic fluid have been thigh flowing inside gurgled. Those who beat the scene in her sight restored calm, inner anxiety is also swept away. She calmly waiting for Chak measure up from the ground and beat the dust, waiting for the dust cleared revealing his weak body.
then issue a voice that gave a thorn -
It hit the red windbreaker disappeared around the corner, turn in the past, are like his memory.
simply walking into a strange, familiar to us late in the peak hours, he is almost surrounded by these people, flocking to the subway, his direction, the direction seems to be a lot of people. Always precedes the loss of their own before losing the direction for this problem, Ze measures no idea.
standing behind a lot of people, see a lot of people's head, this time, Ze measures already looks like his mother, brown skin, curly hair, a haughty look and a touch of Lengjun .
but his thoughts remain in the distant Lugu Lake, still, stood in his Chengding ceremony that day.
subway with the wind, sound entering the station with a Long, Ze measures eyes locked the door, a small door, his eyes suddenly became confused, suddenly filled with awe, which is 12 Ze-year-old measures of attention. He saw the fan bam door slamming open, which no one, did not have the face with a tired color sleepy office workers. Inside was only a narrow wooden bed, the floor covered with brown linen with red patterned rugs, a bunch of pale light of a square house and had to wear.
Mosuo people used to watch this death and to meet the new hut.
house they call it life and death.
this day, Ze measures Wangfujing subway station in the crowded, to see life and death of their family house, was willing to pay attention to him? His eyes are a bunch of beat the light, it was a boy growing up in the course of his encounter will be disturbed.
Ze measures in this disturbing look at his old grandmother, his sister Bin Mala said:
br> the stained skirt litter and dust in space for any possible slipping.
charity donation thin as onion skin dress, wore a shell necklace, like a goblin would bite his finger, taken seriously the old grandmother, to prevent her death, while sucking her small fingers.
old grandmother is dying, as we said, she lived over the years of her memory, her eyes deep place, a little light is flickering,Discount UGG boots, this is just her the only thing alive.
She looked down at the dying man, slowly moving the shadow of death, blocking the light side, in the grandmother's face cast a shadow disorder.
fear of sudden they saw a small fire Mouzhong grandmother suddenly become unusually strong, almost occupies a large area of the eye benevolence, her eyes turned into gold.
old grandmother, her golden eyes turning, looking to the death house, Dinglao it, your eyes, the fire burning quietly, continuing to heat up.
right in saying that her proposal is the most reasonable, but the key to it? Keys?
death was a rust mottled house locks locked, since Bin Mala was born, this house never used to, ze measures do not know whether it has locked the locks what he familiar taste, a moist, mixed with butter and rotten smell of grass, the taste was seriously corroded and that the locks with the same, there is a feeling of depression swallow that he was afraid, at the same time feel exciting.
Ze measures clearly remember the taste of this house, he had not been recognized once the gate of hell was a terrible great houses that people carried into this life and death.
when he was two years old to three years, however, between the thin there and dream of memory, but also he had the measles, but the continuous high fever and coma that adults have lost confidence So, at that narrow wooden bed, in the thick grass mixed with butter and decay in the atmosphere, Ze measures under the eyes of their attention.
is watching the eyes of death.
he saw his mother, and she looked at him in surprise, his eyes full of steaming in terror and despair, her eyes were her own white gas plume that comes out of shrouded, as standing in the New Year steamed cakes, cooking time ago, not legible.
he saw his grandmother, written under the mouth, eyes swelled like a cherry, like, her eyes kept in the twist like a torsion pendulum is caught up in the air, the fish body.
he saw his grandmother, I'm sorry, his grandmother stood behind a little, so it should be said that he felt he was a little old grandmother looked away, looked at him, her eyes through the the crowd stopped in his body, brighter eyes and has a calm and tears.
He believed that the tablets will not shed tears but will of her eyes.
they all looked hard at his throat and mouth, as if life is a bunch of smoke emerge from the canopic jars, little attention will be Gone quietly, no longer caught.
Ze measures being difficult swallowing, swallowing several times, he swallowed his own soul, gone back to the body.
he fell asleep, but issued a mild and balanced breathing. He mixed the butter in a room full of green grass and decay, in the death of loved ones eyes looking quietly fell asleep.
fierce wind, Bin Mala loose with long hair, thin hair soft, Ze measures have all been blown to the air, flying at random, half-day can not fall.
Ze measures thought of his mother, the always happy with a woman, at this time Mulou walking down the central difficulty, She walked in the place, and amniotic fluid as the river flows generally.
My stomach was. Because she always wanted a little brother, she put him back in the back, take him out mining dandelion, or in the sunny days, colorful butterflies to his hole symmetry breaking.
she rushed in to pull her mother's hand, but she immediately pulling away, weeping, blowing her hand and said: Tan. weak to maximize the show in his back, to show to his mother, he never a temptation than it is now more like cockroaches.
but she smiled, we said, she is an easy happy woman, her smile had more mixed feelings.
Ze measures at this time was walking hurriedly grandmother, her large body of strong build rickety, walking on the way back. She sweat pour off, his face flushing, fetters the pace of large her dress tucked in the belt. Some passers-by asked her:
I do not want her to be no guide to ghosts. the cold winter wind, held fast to her back.
After a while, the water village is well known, Ze measures of the old grandmother going to die.
Ze measures dilating his nostrils stretch my face, but not a familiar taste of nostrils, as he expected. All intact, is still narrow bed, dark wood flute wall, still on the ground was covered with brown linen with red-patterned carpet blanket, is still bleak in the light of a bunch of square rooms and had to wear.
years later, as the subway doors that of a bang when the Cui Xiang, Chak measures which are in illusion, in what has been shrouded in dust cover and the city, saw his 12-years old, with a shiny key to open the same scene when the death house, the difference is that he also smelled the rotting green grass mixed with butter and moist atmosphere.
Palestinian grandmother were finally back to his old home, and end with her many enthusiastic women see a shocking sight, this scene, and even well-informed Palestinian old cases also moment could do nothing.
Ze measures of the ugly woman lying on her own amniotic fluid, her head leaning against the female column, if so, can the root symbol of female fertility from the pillar to get infinite power. In order to hold back the amniotic fluid, and she closed his mouth to the cheek in the dark air, until the drums could not be more drums, and her cheek like a balloon becomes almost transparent, she put the gas let go. She also distributed hot body temperature, so hot the whole house, so that everyone felt back out on the infiltration of the drops of perspiration. Ze measures
old grandmother, sleeping in a wooden house of life and death bed sheets with her empty eyes and the mouth of the same empty, quiet to sleep, who do not know how long she wants to sleep in such a manner.
Before they had been silent a long time to discuss, the old grandmother with her golden eyes, Ze measures of the mother with her squeezed out from between the teeth in the slightest breath. During this discussion a long time in silent, Ze measures for the first time felt the gods were Palestinian eyes, it was enshrined in their house the most sacred place, he felt the eyes of its spread in many corners of the room, the old grandmother and the mother's body moved to remove, and then stay in his body, he felt it scattered and blue eyes, hold in mouth as the tears of pity.
Even God has time to do nothing.
discuss measures result is the mother stopped Ze squeeze out the air,UGG shoes, with vague voice, said: In the weekdays, the sound will be much higher, like a small yellow bird flying high, Ze measures on hearing his mother spoke, often see only fly. We say, she is a happy woman.
Sassafras Mount belly for many years, so even if the lock to open a rusty or very good, just touch them.
touch them, Ze measures would see those lost times, they are like some small white flying insects with transparent wings dancing, haste together if their existence only to disappear, to Ze, as have the measures of the moment, and then walked out the door away, a bit surprised at the Ze measures and sadness in the eyes disappear.
This is the time.
This is the time.
even universal life and death, he also can not lock the passage of time and change.
they leave, surprise and sadness at the Ze measures in the eyes, along with the distant sound of a sigh. This is the old grandmother's sigh, as we know, a dead man is heavy, her stiff obviously far more than the weight of dry but her thin body, she sighed and gave up Ze Bin Mala by the measures and the house of her death carried the expectations of their own and sat up. Her golden eyes wide open, sipping a toothless mouth, shake the body substantially firmly toward the house that went between the sacred, like where to live her youth.
a moment, Ze measures and Bin Mala and their mother that she might be almost the same time they want to die out.
she walked into the death house.
Gonggongzhengzheng lying in bed, long to sigh, to stop the shake, look at her eyes off the fire Puchi, just as no eyes, only two fathomless hole.
Ze measures become vague memory here, bear, he stood among a group of women hectic from time to time to be open, and was snapped, but he felt like does not exist. Years later, when a sudden dust when sweeping the streets of Beijing, Ze measures into a suspect again, he wondered whether at that moment truly existed.
this time, Ze measures just graduated from the United States came back, his English name is William. In fact, people have called him William, after he left the village fell into the water.
William, people shouting the name of the source of strange to feel a deep, varying degrees of meaning, from exotic, far away from the unknown, from the first memory of people, they wake up dormant as if living in the long winter.
are in doubt and the illusion of Chak measures, or William, and finally back to reality, he was surrounded by the crowd, he saw a picture or whitewash or pale or sallow face, there is no expression, squeeze squeeze pay to pay. Surrounded by his side, surrounded in every possible corner, as if the crowd is life's original state.
will leave memories.
before it left, Ze some sporadic measures to clean up the debris, that day, his grandmother and mother were carried to the countless times people carried away. Lift old grandmother, people Gongyao hump, perspiring, shouting his mouth whispered chant, carrying his mother, people quick and easy pace is brisk, as if carrying a cloud. He remembers his
asked, skirts between the shuttle and disappeared in the excitement and anxious intertwined with the discourse.
Finally, he remembers his family out of the noisy, outside the sun bathed the orange, he pushed the sun such as walking, slow and bloated, like depressed adults. That day, the people fishing in the banks of Lugu Lake have seen Chak measures almost slow walk back, I do not know why, they feel there is one thing to walk slowly as the child becomes infinitely long, no reason to rise in my mind as a lingering melancholy.
that day, people forget his Chengding ceremony, conveniently slide down forget him.
Ze measures, the pale boy of short stature has again been reminded three days later.
know a stranger with a Chinese Moso fell into the water to the village, he was looking for a much longer and his teenage children alike, the village head said, little children playing all say: House, recognized measures Ze mother, although she is now holding a child is a little fat, but still kind of look, long hair hanging waist, tall and straight, smooth, glossy blue and white glowing skin, brow exudes endless delight.
As she once said, the man stood before her, but she did not recognize him now.
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